As some of you know who read my blog from time to time I am a nurse in a Surgical ICU in a level 1 Trauma Center. So we get the worst of the worst when it comes to car accidents, shootings, etc. This past work week has been very hard for myself and the other nurses I work with. We work hard every day to save lives. Your faced with your own mortality, and are called upon to not only do all you can medically to save someones life, but also to be a shoulder to lean on for the families that are grieving for there loved one. Hospitals are largely where people only come when the worst of the worst is happening. It is an emotional roller coaster that can bring out the best and worst of people. This week we had a large amount of patients die in our ICU. Unfortunantly, when you work in a Level 1 Trauma Center patients come to you when they have already died or almost died and many we can save, but its also a common occurance to lose lives. We all deal with it differently. I run.
At this point in my pregnancy it is starting to get hard to run, and I often walk more than run. I am happy to still get back out there, but I am sometimes suffering emotionally and need to run more than I am able. I have cried this week, and suffered with these families. Its hard not to bring it home with you.
Running brings me peace and emotional strength. I am happy to still be out there working out, to maintain a fit pregnancy, and a healthy lifestyle. I am also glad I am still out there because I need it to deal with the loss that sometimes surrounds me on a daily basis. Sweat is cleansing, running is peace. I am so grateful for that. I am grateful that I can FIND MY STRONG is running.
Does running bring you peace?