Has anyone out there ever reached a point in there pregnancy where it felt like running became the hardest thing ever??!! I reached it this last week.
Now I will preface it by explaining my work schedule a little. I work 7 days in a row, Monday to sunday. I work 1230pm to 11pm each one of those days. Now my job is in a surgical ICU level 1 trauma center so there is not sitting there is not putting my feet up. I have hit 15 weeks pregnant and I am feeling it!! Im exhausted!! I have been following the AMR 5K finish it plan and I hit the biggest road block Saturday. I couldn't have run if I wanted to. I was so tired, my body was beaten down. I was having heart palpitations, cramping in my abdomen, and I was short of breath just walking. I needed a break bad. Unfortunantly I would have taken a break from work, but since that couldn't happen a break from working out was what happened.
I came back to running today with a scaled back workout. There was no way after 7 days of work that I was going to do week 5s workout plan. So I changed back to running 4 and walking 2 which was still so unbelievably painful and hard. I did it that's all I could think when I finally got done.
I'm just going to try and not be frustrated, but I was definitely running and holding back tears, which if any of you have ever tried it it sucks. I hate that my pregnant body can't handle running, working, running after a 14 month old and all the other duties I have in my life. I hate that I am not one of those women who can just do it all. I want to be I aspire to be, but I am not. I was angry on my run and as I think back on it. I need to not be. I am 15 weeks pregnant and I am running. My baby is healthy, my son is healthy, my family is happy. I am still running. I am still working. I may not be able to run at the level I was before I got pregnant, but Im still out there and Ill continue on as long as I can.
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