Friday, May 31, 2013

What I'm Scared of and How I fight it!!

I am a negative self talker.  I'm also a worrier.  I have spent a large portion of my life feeling not good enough, not worthy.  

It wasn't until I started running almost 13 years ago that I started to be able to fight those negative thoughts.  Don't get me wrong it didn't just up and go away.  I fight it still, but if I run and stay active it's easier to feel positive to feel that I AM ENOUGH.  

My number one fear is that I will fail.  Fail as a mom, a nurse, a wife, a friend.  When I have a bad run I look and see what I can learn from it.  Did I push to hard, not hydrate well, under or overtrain etc.  running has helped me look at other difficult situations in my life when I've been overwhelmed and frustrated and be able to learn from it.  Am I perfect at it? No but I'm a lot better now than I used to be.

I continue to grow through running, through being a mother, wife, and the many other hats I wear on a daily basis.  I'm happier and I continue to tell myself I AM ENOUGH.

What are you afraid of? What mantra do you use to fight through? Is running a tool you use to fight the fear?


  1. I always remind myself "What I run for" to keep my thoughts positive. Why do I get up and do what I do ... that typically takes away all doubt even on days where I am not at my best.

  2. That is definitely a great way to look at it, and I'm going to make it more of a practice

  3. I know exactly what you mean! I struggle with this also. I am also afraid of failure. I completed my first marathon this year.. so now when I am fearful of failure I remember how I finished. It helps :)

  4. One mantra that I have heard people talk about using is "You are faster/stronger/better/insert-any-positive-adjective-here than you think you are." If you're looking for something to motivate and encourage you, that seems like a nice phrase to keep in mind!